makin' some baby steps
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11/18/2008
Well, I've taken a few steps toward finding me :) I quit the safe, boring job I've had for the last two and half years. Instead of sitting in my home in rural Alabama tonight, I'm in a hotel in north Dallas...
Before the divorce three years ago, I had a great job, that I really loved; that made me feel somewhat fullfilled. The job was over an hours drive from my house and required at lot of travel. During the divorce, I was offered an IT support job at a company 3 miles from my house. I was making the same amount of money as before, working only 40 hours a week and went home for lunch everyday. BUT, it was the most boring, unchallenging job that I've ever had. My self esteem sufferred some. I really felt like I had no reason to get up and go to work everyday. During the last year, I had another job offer with a software company in Dallas, but told them that I couldn't move while my kids were still in high school. I had made them a promise that I intended to keep. Well the kids moved out a couple of months ago (long story for another blog).
My friend J lives in Dallas working for this same company and his birthday was last month. He had been begging me to come visit him for a while. J lives in the 'gayborhood'... Oak Lawn. So, I found a cheap flight and I went off to the big 'D'! OMG.. I loved Dallas. I loved J's neighborhood! It was like finding home for the first time. We went to Kroger for some groceries... gays everywhere. Ditto for restaurants and all other kinds of businesses. In one block alone there were about 5 gay bars. J and his new bf took me to Sue Ellen's a couple of times. And if you are ever visiting Dallas, you should definitely go... they had some great live music while I was there. I was also in town for the Halloween street party... it was amazing.
Anyway... while I was in town, I had a job interview. They offered to let me work from home in Alabama, with me flying out every 4 to 6 weeks to stay for a week. And now... TA DA!! I'm here, for three weeks of training. It's only my second day, and so I've not ventured out on my own yet, but I think I'll try to get brave this weekend :) I've been reading lots of blogs and there are several I follow every day. All these women really support me, even if they dont know it. The problem is, I don't actually know any lesbians in rl. I've had gay guy friends all my life. I don't know if it was the area I live in... I just don't know any gay women... or if I do, they are in the closet, lol. I'm not sure how to go about finding friends, and I am PAINFULLY shy with strangers....
Well, I've taken a few steps toward finding me :) I quit the safe, boring job I've had for the last two and half years. Instead of sitting in my home in rural Alabama tonight, I'm in a hotel in north Dallas...
Before the divorce three years ago, I had a great job, that I really loved; that made me feel somewhat fullfilled. The job was over an hours drive from my house and required at lot of travel. During the divorce, I was offered an IT support job at a company 3 miles from my house. I was making the same amount of money as before, working only 40 hours a week and went home for lunch everyday. BUT, it was the most boring, unchallenging job that I've ever had. My self esteem sufferred some. I really felt like I had no reason to get up and go to work everyday. During the last year, I had another job offer with a software company in Dallas, but told them that I couldn't move while my kids were still in high school. I had made them a promise that I intended to keep. Well the kids moved out a couple of months ago (long story for another blog).
My friend J lives in Dallas working for this same company and his birthday was last month. He had been begging me to come visit him for a while. J lives in the 'gayborhood'... Oak Lawn. So, I found a cheap flight and I went off to the big 'D'! OMG.. I loved Dallas. I loved J's neighborhood! It was like finding home for the first time. We went to Kroger for some groceries... gays everywhere. Ditto for restaurants and all other kinds of businesses. In one block alone there were about 5 gay bars. J and his new bf took me to Sue Ellen's a couple of times. And if you are ever visiting Dallas, you should definitely go... they had some great live music while I was there. I was also in town for the Halloween street party... it was amazing.
Anyway... while I was in town, I had a job interview. They offered to let me work from home in Alabama, with me flying out every 4 to 6 weeks to stay for a week. And now... TA DA!! I'm here, for three weeks of training. It's only my second day, and so I've not ventured out on my own yet, but I think I'll try to get brave this weekend :) I've been reading lots of blogs and there are several I follow every day. All these women really support me, even if they dont know it. The problem is, I don't actually know any lesbians in rl. I've had gay guy friends all my life. I don't know if it was the area I live in... I just don't know any gay women... or if I do, they are in the closet, lol. I'm not sure how to go about finding friends, and I am PAINFULLY shy with strangers....
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